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| i misses him alot alot. but i cant tell him this is how hard... | | |
| I wish one day you will hold my hand when we are out i wish one day you will hug me when im home I wish one day you realize how much i love u i wish one day you will kiss me beside u go to work I wish one day you will kiss me like how u always kiss ur dog I wish one day you know how i felt I wish one day, I'm the first in ur heart I wish one day u will surprise me with just a card I wish one day we will be as romantic as how other couples are | | |
| i have been facing some emotional unstable for the pass DEATH been haunting me! i hate that feelings.. why is it my mind keep thinking bout all this.. DEAD ! Im moody all the time, i have no heart to do my stuff.. im like going crazy any soon.. i felt my man is not caring enough, i always felt he is so selfish. i have done so much thing for him, why cant he just do smth to make me happy, besides making himself happy .. im frustrated with many things in life.. i am sick with the nonsense nagging! im sick with nonsense stuff! im so sick of all this! I wanna get my life back like i used to have! *CRYY* | | |
| already 4 month i never log in.. guess im living quite happy and well for the pass 4 months until im here again today.. emo? yea i am again down to this kinda emotional. but i think soon will be better.. since i talk to him yesterday, i felt so much better.. but why sometime i felt abit lost still.. i just felt that he is far away from me.. i miss him every moment.. besides my work, everything is just him him him him him.. its all also him! darn! i just cant wait for this coming trip on november! our first trip ever to oversea! HONG KONG ! Weee. Working hard on it! every money earn, i'll save up for this trip.. and also some save up for future :) I dont feel good when he said he wanna go genting on May with his friends.. my heart just not feels alright.. :( seriously.. but i cant do anything.. im not his wife! i have no rights at all! | | |
| Time pass tremendously fast. We already been 1 year plus. There are alot of ups and downs. Tears and Joy. Laughter and Anger. Crazy and Sweet. Along this year, alot of things happened. Many things in life i never did before, eventually he make me did it for the first time. Even though the time together maybe short, but it has been piled up with so much memories. it was fun, excited and crazy relationship with him. Stress and depress. LOL. But still never a day i never fall for him over n over again. yes, might be few time im fed up.. im frustrated, i-wanna-give-up-on-him, but all this never beats the love from me to him. I love him so much as who he is. Kevin John. Many times ppl saw i deserve better man.. but to me he is the man in my life.
One day, i talked to his aunt, and she told to prayed about it and i always do.. i told her, i donno wat is the answer and i donno what God wants me to do.. She told me, God maybe is training to at this very hard time. so u can cope with it in future, how u gonna handle all this.. when time come, his mom will not be with him and im the one who gonna be responsible as a wife. I ask God isit true? Im very tired . i cant take this anymore. btw.. i still love him
Its been 2 months the relationship has cold down and i donno what should i do... Just let it go on? i did talk to him.. but still the same...
im tired and i try to let it go ... Im too attached to him, and i don feel nice whenever he is not around.. isit a normal thing?
He is back to his game and this really broke my heart. He played his game 8-9hours non stop a day..where i really cannot stand it..but what i can do ???
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